LIFE
I live in a depravational world,
Where death is a way of life.
One day I shall die and my body will rest,
But my soul will not.
Where is the knife when you need it most.
I feel like a mouse in a cage,
No freedom to go places or do things.
It's like being grounded forever.
Love never lasts when your young,
Your parents always ruin it.
Curse those whe have seen the light,
Who have done it all,
Who have seen it all.
They don't know how it feels,
How it feels... to be me.
The barren fields that were once covered with snow,
Are now covered with coal.
I wish I could go far far away,
To my own island,
Where no one but myself shall reign.
I shall rewrite the constution,
Making it so it fits me.
The declaration of independence will no longer exist,
Neither will my dad or his stupid girlfriend.
Soon you will learn that your simple life,
is nothing compared to the missery and depression I'm put through.
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How can the world you live in,
The life you live,
Be so painful.
It's almost suicide,
The way we live.
What is this life for,
for death and distruction,
or for missery and depression.
This life we live can never be killed,
It goes on until it kills us.
Why die of a wrinkled old hag,
When you can die of a beautiful soul.
If the life we live is just for torture,
Then why the hell should we live.
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If I love,
My heart shall be crushed before me.
If I hate,
My life shall be crushed before me.
If I am somewhere in the middle,
Then there is depression.
There is no point to all this shit.
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Cheerfull skys and butterflys,
A wonderful breeze that moves the trees.
I wish I could live,
In this wonderland.
Too bad my home,
Is made of sand.
This hourglass I own,
Is time's worst fear.
Sometimes I wonder,
Why I cherish it so dear.
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To Katie
The shaking never stops,
To what it seems I fear you will die.
I never really understood you,
And I guess I never will.
I wish I could do something,
Instead of sitting on my ass,
Watching you suffer in pain.
Your slowing down now,
Is it the end,
Or the start of another painful beginning?
What is going on.
When I read your mind and soul,
I only see a straight line.
As the one on a heart monitor.
I see ahead of me a vision,
You are in a bed,
And I am crying.
What is going on, I really with I knew.
The end is near,
I can feel it shaking my body.
I told you I needed you with me.
Now all I can feel is my
sweat dripping off my forehead.
There is something against my head,
The barrel of a gun it seems.
I can feel nothing now,
But the cold line I felt in you.
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TRUST
Trying deeply to realize,
The pain that has begun.
Too bad though,
That the road is covered in a thick musty fog.
A hazy figure has started to appear,
He leads me to the darkest end of the road.
Trust is all you need, he whispers.
His breath one with the wind.
Then I sat down on a cold stone.
I never followed him that day...
Though the way he was leading me...
Was the way home.
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For nights I have cried,
Day after day, night after night.
Wondering why it always has to happen to me.
Ny heart is broken,
I need not care anymore.
For the one I love,
Has cast me into the dungon,
The dungon of a thousand stabbing knives.
Love hurts more than hells worst nightmare.
How can I live,
When there is no point to life?
Ahould I die, or should I live.
If I could choose,
I'd choose to die.
Maby then the pain will go away.
Damin these voices, they piss me off.
Maby they are the reason I cant sleep at night.*
If you read all through these thank you. There are many other poems, but I feel these are my best. They were all written when I was 16 and 17.
Shannon Lynne Boone/Mellgren